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Just popped into a website and did a personality test. The choice of your pictures are measurements for the results. Gosh, this is what i got!!!!Absolutely accurate and unbelievable!!!!!I guess…..as nobody would know me better other than myself…

Personality: Mood: sophisticate

 
You’re romantic but like to get back to basics. You can be
nostalgic and like landscapes that make you feel calm. You have great ideas and
a cool calm manner. When it comes to art, you have a traditional eye. You are
passionate about history and skills that have been around for centuries, you
believe truly great art stands the test of time. As for music, you’re a
discerning listener-romantic and passionate. You love the buzz you get from
watching music live-there nothing like it, Your choice of treat reveals and
indulgent side of you. A real food lover-you like to have all of you cake. You
live life to the full and take any opportunity when it comes. You like to live
the high life; mixing in the right circles; look for their best; like to be
impressed and make an impact. You are full of ambition, energy and moving onto
the next level.

Fun: Thriller

Oh-Insatiable! Your thirst for affection never drops. You
have got a high appétit for love. For kicks there is nothing like a little
affection to give you a buzz. You can make the best of any situation-love to
have you around. You love to laugh and have a bit of naughty side. When it
comes to holidays, relaxing, traveling and spending time with friends and
family is what it is all about. You like long lazy sunny days-coming back home
rejuvenated. What grosses you out? You like things to be neat clean and
smelling sweet- that’s not too much to ask isn’t it. You are striving for a
simpler life that do without disposable trends-inspired by nature and
longevity. However, you love top quality and high-end glamor.

Habits: back to basics

You can never get
enough attention or affection. A bit of a one track mind some might say. Independent,
thoughtful, you know yourself well. You like to think you’re a devil in your
sack, no talk and plenty of action! Your choice of drink reflects your love of
the stability and comfort of routine. As for you home, you have a very cool and
contemporary taste. You have a simply approach to style, but you like things to
have their place.

Love: Touchy Feely

A strong love relationship
is the best basics for any loving relationship. You like to be able to share
your whole life with your family and lifelong partner. When you think of
freedom, you think of love. The comfort of being loved makes you feel free with
your thoughts and words- You’re a love bug! You’re about to fall in love in a
thousand times a day! Love for you is about human contact-the nitty gritty.
Flowers and chocolates are ways to your heart-love just like it is in the
movies.

Hey…what do you think???hehe…

my friend has just submitted a winnie the pooh and friends
photo on my friendster page and it made me think of how many WTP stuff i
actually have. When i gazed around, i told myself "Not bad!" I could
be considered as quite a "WTP fan". So let’s see

• 
  I used to sleep on my Winnie the pooh bed, but it’s changed to another cartoon
  now though
• 
  I carry my Winnie the Pooh water bottle to school everyday. Don’t get me wrong.
  It’s not the kindergarten’s water bottle with a tube in the middle that
  children’s use. It’s simply nice, black colour and has a Winnie the Pooh face
  contour. What’s more, it can be used a thermal ware!
• I have a Winnie The Pooh pencil box, which i use it since i came to Taylor’s
• 
  My lock is a Winnie the Pooh style alarm clock, it does not produce
  Winnie the Pooh melody though.
• 
  I have a Winnie the Pooh tissue box on my desk, and a dozen more in my
  inventory.
• 
  I have all types of Winnie the Pooh files, A4 size, F4 size and a yellow ring
  file that i like the most.
• 
  I have a Winnie the Pooh watch that is given by my friend, costs about 100
  dollars and also one more that is bought from japan.
• 
  My Sony Ericson K550i is having Winnie The Pooh as the wallpaper theme.
  Bouncing and having fun with Tigger!!
• 
  I have a couple of Winnie the Pooh face towels and also a M-size T-shirt in the
  wardrobe.
• 
  My wardrobe is sticked with Winnie the Pooh stickers (Not the stickers that
  could buy in pasar malam for one dollar each…They are just wall stickers.
  Nevertheless, i have quite a lot of stickers which are kept with my graphic
  accesseries)
• 
  I am also putting my camera in a Winnie the Pooh case.

Well, i guess that’s all i could think about, though i know there is still much
more than that. I LOVE WINNIE THE POOH!!hehe…

        I acknowledged that i was and i am gross out with life now. A lousy beginning of a week indicates more to come. This is true and i basically confirmed to my belief after going through a tough week. Walking back home, strong gust of wind seem to be patting ur face sinisterly and said "Hey you!!I am just gonna block your way and won’t let you succeed!!
Apparently, I learnt the truth that things do change in my lives, but often not to the better. History does repeat, and i know it will always haunt me whenever or wherever i go.

        Driven by desperation, blinded by despair, paralyzed by the sickness of my life,  I am going to accept this, and believing that one day i will reach to be stronger and higher…

**Want to know one way to prevent your tears from rolling?Especially when you are in front of many people?
Take a sudden and deep long breath, smile to yourself, think about and watch all the wonderful greenery or things around u. It could at least hold your sorrows for sometime, so that you could still maintain a bright side of your face, before you really broke down and dipped your tears.

Oh…sorry for the lateness in finally posting something, as
my tight schedule has been driving me crazy…but here’s a little peek on one
of my greatest event happened on the 27^th, if you happened to know
that it was obviously my birthday!!!hehe

In my childhood years, birthday was the most important event
in my life that I always look forward to celebrate. In retrospect, I have
had many important events that had significant impacts in my lives, and it was
none other than this perfect ‘19^th’ birthday bash that I gonna share
with you. It may seem to be rather odd or stuffy for me to be talking about a
birthday party but it was much more than that supposed to be.

27^th February, 2008

This day was rather unpleasant as things aren’t just getting
straight on my way. I felt like I was a punk when things had really been stunk!
It was actually this day that I got back my calculus(always my greatest fear)
test paper and realized how silly I was to make so many mistakes, which
explained why I scored terribly in this test. I had always suffered from phobia
towards numbers and this had bothered me so much that I’m really getting sick
of it. Okay, get this out and switch the
point now. This was also a day that the rain was turning down hard and I got
myself drenched badly. Or maybe I should say that the RainGod was paying me a surprise
visit and that he was so intelligent to choose the perfectly right time to pour
his rain (AFTER OSSLT CLASS). Being downhearted, just imagine how depressed and
dejected I was when the rhythm of the rain seems to be composing a melody with
my crying needs to be happy in my birthday!!!

So it was half past eight at night and things began to be
slightly different when my buddies in my unit celebrated my birthday with me!!
Let bygones be bygones. To syu, sarah, shidah, yin yee, yi ning, thon lin,
reuben and the other two guys that were ‘invited’….hehe… Thanks
for the lovely birthday cake and your present that was to snap my ugly side
when I licked the sticky and pinky name label. Thank you guys as you made me
feel happy again. So, soon I received a call from our LAN group leader(name shall
be reserved to be unknown first) to attend a so-called “MALAYSIAN STUDIES
MEETING” at the condo foyer by ten. “All right, this is what my birthday can
offer,” so I said. Astonishingly, I received another call from the same guy,
being reprimanded badly, demanded to be at the foyer right at that moment. **Frankly,
guys, I was actually suspecting something which I maybe surprised by a birthday
bash from u all but I still keep it in a low profile as not to get embarrassed,
when things didn’t turn out of what I had expected. So, here I went down and I
found David(name to be mentioned now) and Darleena sitting discreetly at one
corner. And guess what, both of me and Darleena were standing there like
dumfounded, poor innocent child with pathetic doggy eyes. I was actually
contollling myself to laugh, as you see David, this is an utter madness of you
standing in front of the pool at the silent night, and scolding people in such
a senile way. Somehow, when I realized things didn’t turn out of what I
expected, I suggest I might need to confirm my belief that this is totally a
“MEETING."

Here’s the climax:
        When hope was out of sight, I heard
footsteps approaching and I was indeed surprised by a bunch of my lovely
friends with the sing-along birthday song. The cake was brought in and i blew the candles, started with the cutting business amids claps.  Perhaps you guys would think that this isn’t really a surprise as
I have suspected it earlier. Please don’t get me wrong, it was so touching in
the sense that I had never expected so many people would present and celebrated
with me. I saw exuberant happiness and glimmering lights on everybody’s faces. At once, the minister of sorrows was setting off right away with the intense
exhilaration surrounding me. So, this began my wonderful time when food was
served and everybody was enjoying tremendously. It was wonderful of more than I
could ever imagine. More than that, Darleena’s birthday is just a few days away
and I was glad to celebrate this party with her, not forgetting Serene and Reen
as well. “SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance.”

When I was asked to declare my wish
and feelings, it was really the most difficult task which I had to say something despite
holding my tears from rolling down. So up to this point, anyone who had come
across this post could imagine how this birthday bash had actually brighten up
my day and why it had seemed to be so special to me. This was supposed to be
the first birthday I celebrated outside my hometown, and what’s more, this was
also one of the coolest birthday parties which I had got. It appeared to be such
a magical event for me and I enjoyed it so much until I was rather dreaded to
end the party (HEHE). It just showed how much you guys cared about me as you
went through all the hassles(Drinks, Canadian Pizza, Blackforest, MPSJ utensils) to make this day special for me. Some of you even had quizzes, tests
or assignments that are due the next day, and you were still willing to spend
this sparking moment with me. Guys, you just don’t know how much this party
meant to me and how thankful I am to have celebrated this special day with you
all.

To extend my gratitude, special
thanks to David who had shown me how greatly preposterous you can be(Just joking) I knew you were the engineer of this whole party, whereby you had put in so
much effort to make this a success. You had transformed this bad day of mine
into a spectacular one. Thank you for being so thoughtful and kind enough to
organize this event. Also, thanks to Alyssa, the great emcee of the night, who
have entertained us with her sumptuous speech. And after the event, I was
eventually told that you guys had got prepared almost one hour before the
bash. Oh, what a touching scene and I wished I could have recorded it down. So
lastly, thanks to everyone (Alex, Alyssa, Constance, David, Darleena, Fa, Jo,
Jeanne, Kent, Lee Lung, Leong, Reen, Serene, Siti, Shu Ann, Wei Xin). It was
said that true friends are hard to find, (Who said so?I found you all!)difficult to leave (Nah..different province..but still we’re in Canada ) and
impossible to forget (not to forget till the rest of my lives). Though we met
by only chance, after all there is nothing on this earth more to be
prized than true friendship and I sincerely hoped that as we walk our path of
lives, our friendship will enhance us with a warmth felt in the heart.

 Despite this party, I would also
like to express my thankfulness to everyone who had wished me on this day. Those wishes had actually bowled me over !! So, THANK YOU once again for making
this birthday as one of the most memorable one in my 19 years of odd existence.
True enough, it’s this moment that made life worth living by giving the last
few hours before the end of my birthday such a great momentum. It was this
happiness that made me encountered quite a sleepless night where everybody was fast
asleep, and I dug my head into the pillow, shedding tears of delight as never
before.

I shall end this by saying that it
is always true that

many people will walk in and out of our lives, but only
true friends will leave an indelible mark in your heart.

My friends, you shall remain forever near and true
in my heart.

How far away is leaving? i can still remember vividly the day we sat in the lecture hall upon arrival…the first day we met each other and became friends..the first day we introduced ourselves to the teachers and fellow classmates…and till today…almost everyone gets so emotional to depart……saying goodbye to each other…It’s just so unbelievable that we have gone through such a  time…with excitements and despair…with great hopes each day…

Today’s feelings are really complicated. ..Leaving was always the hardest time for me…Although it’s just a short half year we have been spending together, looking back the times when we struggle for tonnes of assignments and exams..all that we have done in this short period of time, everything was left memories…AND Our teachers, giving great lecture…keeping up with one assignments by one…It’s just so great to have them.

For the past few months, i keep longing for this day to come…breaking into the semester holidays…But today..i was rather sad…the feelings are just so indescribable. Especially when the teachers get emotional…i feel like crying…After all, they are really great!!Committed and Best teachers i could ever have…

Indeed, i appreciate the time we have been spending together..This wonderful…short period…had allowed me to explore the outside world and myself personally while constantly forging new friendships with others…and for that I am forever thankful.Every moment was worth savoring and there
was never a time when I regretted.

I’m not quite sure what else to write, I just don’t really know the ways to put the best feelings I’ve ever felt into words…Everything which happened within this period makes my life meaningful..  What makes our lives meaningful is that we find the activities we
engage in to be worthwhile.It’s in these best period of times i have ventured out …understood myself…and most importantly….I have known more than i ought to…about life…about people…evolving the relationships between people…and i have really gained a lot…..these precious moments would forever be kept as memories in my heart…

lost in a way of darkness…in great despair and feels a strong, vivid downfall of my soul and spirit…

Tell me minister of darkness!!why would all the sinister things being cramped and happened to this lonely soul at one time??Gracious God, can’t you see that my heart could scarcely cry…it’s healing..and how could you bear to let it stop in the middle point?? Inner side, it hurts so much!!And yet…bright and happy signs are forced to be drawn on the badly scratched-face…

Sense of belonging…seems to have gone so far…so far away…that would never be reached…

Wicked!!Great!!I guess nobody would know what i would be talking about!!Anyway, nowhere else to keep and just happen to pour it here.

What happen to people nowadays?I would just pray for the almighty God to quickly brainwash these people..for having a stone-heart and being cold-blooded. This is the only place we live in, and yet the world is just so full of these unexpectable and indescribable mindless people. Revolution and again, Revolution!i wonder who is going to lead a new specter of revolution….to cure these people..not physically..but psychologically by digging into their frame set of minds!! So, Genocide??A brand ‘new’ Cambodia torment?? (David has given me information that Genocide is actually up to something good..as definited by leading people at that period…well…something related to people’s minds i think ><…and even i’m writing this…cant get away from history..world issue those stuff…) But, No way!!  And so, what have caused this to happen??People are civilised?educated?Bearing good and perfect personalities??Not at all…People are just still indigenous to the wicked side which is inherent in them.Tremendously sick in mind and due to a real anger i have got in me now, I must say INSANITY!!! This is it!!Human nature!!Who cares who!!Aikssss…Come on people…Don’t you know what does caring mean??Don’t you appreciate what you had before and what you enjoy in present???When have you all been changing and look what are you becoming now…leading to something good??or ….?? Answer: "Well, of course i am! I am happy to be whatever i am now!!" For God sake, u will taste the bitter side way beyond…just wait!!it will come..

Adding in…(mind this if you know what i am crapping about)

"It’s not the matter of how time changes and how rapidly it changes your mind.It’s even not the matter of how the transition has taken place which makes you whatever you are today. And it’s not all about sole ‘admiration’ , it’s the supporting love, faith, trust and true cares which have been sharing all this while.. " Don’t you understand??

其实我本身就不是一个很乐观的人，不过也要看情况而言。或许很多人会认为悲观的人实在是可悲，因为想什么做什么都会向往坏的方向去想。选择成为悲观，并不是没有特定的原因。对我而言，悲观带来很多好处，很多惊喜，很多好结局。曾经试过什么事情都由乐观主义出发，发觉这并不是我的‘那杯茶’。只要我是以乐观的态度去面对某些事，应该是说当我以正面的态度去处理大部分事情，结果一定是好的，开心的相反，让自己非常痛心。有信心能够在考试中脱颖而出-失望；有信心能够凭自己的毅力，能耐创佳绩-失望；有信心去维持人与人之间好的关系-失望；所有的希望都会因此而破碎。所以现在的我，只好选择悲观，应该是指我选择先往坏的方向去想某件事，告诉自己无论有多大的信心，都要一一把它藏在心里，直到结果出炉了，才能够放下心头大石。许多人看了，一定会认为：“这一个人真白痴，迷信，无聊。。。。。。我也曾这样想自己。可是日子就了，经历了很多事情，就相信自己其实在帮着自己，这样的想法只要适合自己，根本不需要在乎它到底是好是坏。因为事实证明，悲观去看待一些事，结果多半出乎意料之外，是好的。

今天忽然有感而发，发现许多我生命中经历与所见的‘原来’

原来，深处在人群中，觉得自己真的非常渺小。

原来，自己尽多大的努力，付出多少，回报只会另自己觉得愚蠢。

原来，一直认为没有可能改变的事情，会在一杀哪变得面目全非。

原来，一杀哪的风光，只是一个象征痛苦的未来。

原来，很多时候，人与人的关系，只是存在着利用和被利用的因素。

原来，在一段刚萌芽的感情里，暧昧的感觉才是最值得回味的，

之后仿佛变得坦然。

原来，等待一个人，真的需要很大的能耐与坚持，但是等待值得的

人与物，并不会厌倦。

原来，化多少力量去挽救一段感情，往往到头来只会落得空手而归。

原来，爱和讨厌，真的只是一线之差。

原来，一切美好的回忆，只是过眼烟云。

原来，彼此间的承诺，也只是一套套的谎言。

原来，少给予一些日子的关爱，关系恶劣得一发不可收拾。

原来，被伤的心，确是需要很长的时间才能愈合。

原来，明知痛苦随之而来，自己也能十分大方的接受。

原来，一段永垂不朽的感情，在真实生活里往往不会存在。

原来，真挚的感情，从一开始就不能经历时间的考验。

原来，长距离的维持一段关系，有人会觉得不切实际，宁愿选择

现有的，放弃旧有的。

原来，失去了的感觉，不会再回头，也只会永远永远地消失。

原来，两人的爱情，到头来只是两个人在抓迷藏。

原来，得不到别人谅解与了解，有时是痛不欲生的。

原来，一场误会，它的杀伤力是如此的庞大。

原来，要好的一段关系，也会因为小失落得无法弥补。

原来，曾经很好的两个人，再会已经是擦身而过的陌路人。

原来，当崩溃地笑出声时，泪水会不停使唤地流过两狭。

原来，崩溃的时候高站在大楼上，感觉是那么的特别，那么特别的痛不欲生。

原来，孤单并不可怕，可怕的是一个人在孤单时的迷惑程度。

原来，当全部人离弃你时，自己并不再感觉孤单，只因为孤单早已转化成丝丝入扣的心伤痕。

原来，人心真的变幻莫测，那么的恐怖，不可思议！

原来，这一切，一切，只是因为时间的变迁，岁月的流逝。世界的各个小部分在运作，科技不断发达，人类不断变化，关系开始变质，变得复杂，甚至是乱七八糟。渐渐地发觉，自己并不是人生戏剧中的主角，而是一个被人嬉戏的玩偶。

原来到最后，只证明- 时间，真的能冲淡一切，删去回忆，破碎美梦，留下深烙心坎的痛楚。

盼到了黎明
又怕让自己清醒
有多少未知的莫名委屈
要我强忍著不能哭泣
我真的累了
累得想放弃逃避
逃回那不再有谁会再乎的过去

走过了风雨
在身上留下了痕迹
回想起这一切百感交集
分不清该可悲还是欢喜
我真的累了
累得我无法继续
有谁能看见我那颗平凡执著的心

为何我用真心做的梦爱的人说的话
没有人愿意相信
而一个小小的天地只属於自己
却如此遥不可及

我只想用真心做个梦爱个人说些话
安静的面对命运
但这无奈的心情
我又能说给谁听